I am not supposed to be blogging! I am supposed to be wrapping Christmas gifts, making treats, walking the dogs, cleaning the fish tank, cleaning the house, sleeping…something…pretty much anything except blogging but here I am.
I was clearing off the dining room table so I could wrap yet more presents and, buried under Monkey’s latest gold star work, were two Christmas cards I had missed. I hung them on the ribbons with the rest and I got that feeling again, you know, that warm fuzzy, all-is-right-with-the-world feeling? The one we parents, and especially we parents with kids facing extra challenges, so rarely get. There is always so much to do, so much to worry about, so much to fear.
When I get that feeling, I always try to fix it in my memory. Last year it was my Extra Special Santa and this year…it’s you…my friends…my family. I have been so amazingly fortunate this year and it first started to sink in when I realized I’d added 40 new people to my Christmas card list this year. I recognize that I don’t deserve half of it but I am grateful beyond words for it anyway. I am grateful beyond words for the support, the love, the laughs, the tears, the understanding. Whether it’s been a comment here, a “like” on facebook or a hug in real life I have absorbed every bit of it…every last positive thought and kind word. I’ve been changed by it.
I’m not going to make any grand proclamations because, when 2011 rolls around, you’ll still find me here with my eyes rolling wildly and gnashing my teeth but know this, under all that, I’m so much closer to the person I want to be now than I was last year…because of you.